The body

In this empty room I sit and crave. In this blank mind, I sit and desire.

For sex. For kiss. For touch.

I learnt that stares violate women.The learning empowered me. I had words for all those violations I had faced. I knew I could counter violations to come with braveness.

And then I reached this place, this space. Surrounded with people who seek me for the words I have to offer, for the concern that I have to show. But here in this place and space, I am de-sexualised. I am no longer coveted for, I am no longer desired. My body is absent, invisible. I am only what people see me. A good friend.

All of me revolts. In blinding anger. Against this gaze, this new lesson learnt.